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emil västerström ([personal profile] illequipped) wrote2019-04-28 08:30 pm

i make another inbox post


now it's for a gentle night
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[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-16 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
[Work clothes: off. Comfy lounging clothes: on. And that's it, honestly! That's Lalli's nightly routine, even though he's vaguely aware that he should go, like, brush his teeth again or something. He's tired...

...But as tired as he really, truly is, it's amazing how awake he suddenly feels when he hears that one little word come from behind him. Emil? ...Emil. Lalli turns, pulling his collar down past his chin as he wastes no time making his way back over to the bed. Time to be cool, time to be casual, time to say:
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Hello.

[Good... morning? Or should he say good night, because it's still entirely too early for Emil to be awake; it's why Lalli blinks down at him for a moment, confused, before he reaches out to brush down a bit of hair that's all fluffed up. This is still fine, yes... hmm...]

...You were asleep.

[No "I thought you were asleep," because Lalli checked! There's nothing weird about that at all!]
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[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-16 01:01 am (UTC)(link)
[Maybe Lalli will brush his hair for him! Later. When Lalli isn't, like, constantly fighting the urge to yawn, but for now—this simple contact will have to do. Hand-holding... nice...

Anyway, how was work? Pfft. Lalli pulls a face, both because work is more than just "running around" and because he doesn't feel like going into detail about... webs, and weird people doing weird things in the middle of the night. Why can't he just mess with Emil's hair in silence for another few minutes...
]

Quiet. [Okay, he can't help it! He has to turn his head to the side and yawn.] ...Long.

[But fine, really, which is why he does his best to (weakly) return that hand squeeze. He's sleepy; talking is... so hard.]
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[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-16 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
[It's not... the most surprising question in the world. They did just spend the better part of the day curled up together, and there was some sleeping involved; it was, mmm, quite nice, and he wouldn't mind repeating it soon, but something about repeating it now gives him pause. He's tired! He's prickly! His patience—which is already thin at the best of times—is practically non-existent, so the idea of Emil doing too much, of being too much, is—

...Well. There is... a chance that being held might become overwhelming; like, there might come a time when he needs to roll away and just breathe for a bit, and yet the thought of lying beside Emil is still a welcome one. He was warm and comfortable and so, so happy earlier? And what's the difference, really, between napping and sleeping... what's the harm in seeing how this goes...
]

Mmh.

[An eventual yes, then, as he lifts a knee onto the bed and gestures for Emil to roll the heck over. Give him the warm spot! If he's going to try this thing, it's only fair.]
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[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-16 02:14 am (UTC)(link)
[This is how romance works when Lalli is involved, so Emil is just going to have to deal with all of his hard work (re: hours spent occupying the same spot) being used for someone else's gain. ...Lalli's gain, specifically, and boy, is he pleased. It's too warm outside for him to be cold, but running around at night can occasionally be a chilly thing; it's why he can't help but to sigh as he pulls the covers up and around him, tucking his chin into them as he closes his eyes. It even smells like Emil... that's nice...

But the real Emil is still, you know, right there, which is why Lalli cracks his eyes open just enough to look back at him. He should indeed sleep; he will sleep, but not before he pulls a hand free of the blanket and reaches out to, like, lightly touch Emil's cheek, almost like he's making sure that Emil is really, truly here. Plus, well—there's still a bit of space between them, you see. He has to make sure Emil isn't too far.
]
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[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-16 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
[It's true! This is what Lalli deserves, which is why even his sleepy self looks decidedly pleased with this current level of attention. Messing with his hair is, without a doubt, juuuust fine. It even earns Emil a soft little cheek pat as Lalli feels sleep creeping right up on him, because even though Lalli wouldn't mind staying awake for a few more minutes... even though it would be nice to be kissed again, just to know that kissing is still a Thing that can and will happen...]

'Night...

[And that's, like, all Lalli has to offer as he slips his hand down to rest between them? Close enough to Emil for Lalli to feel his warmth as he drifts right off. He'll evaluate this in the morning, of course, but for now—well! Good night, indeed!]
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congrats, you earned this: https://i.imgur.com/nVDUZ4B.jpg

[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-20 08:31 am (UTC)(link)
[And Lalli is tired enough to sleep through absolutely everything, The End. Or: Lalli is indeed dead tired, but while he misses out on all of that early morning staring (sad), the feeling of something lightly brushing against his cheek is—hmm. It's not enough to fully wake him; it is, however, enough to kick-start the process, which is why his face twitches ever so slightly before he tucks his chin closer to his chest. It's surely too early to be messed with, so please, Emil—

...Oh. Emil. As sluggish as... everything about him is at this point in time, that name—and all the thoughts it sparks—pushes him to eventually, slowly crack open his eyes. Emil should be right there in front of him? Emil was right there in front of him, back when he fell asleep, but all Lalli sees now is... an empty spot. ...Well.

Lalli's hands are still, like, curled in the space that was between himself and Emil; it takes no effort to move one over to that empty space, fingers feeling for warmth even as his barely conscious self realizes that there's, you know, someone behind him. It takes a surprising amount of effort to turn his head and, like, blearily blink up at them, but it's definitely the person who should be here, in bed, right where his hand is...
]

...Emil?

[Why is the boy THERE and not HERE! ...But hey, this is almost like his old dream? And the dream-that-was-not-a-dream? Emil hovering over him isn't a bad thing to wake up to at all, even if Lalli still feels all gross and slow. No talking; only sleepy staring, because hey, maybe he's dreaming again.]
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[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-20 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[Suddenly waking up back in the tank was one thing; suddenly waking up in this bed is something else entirely, so pair that with how exhausted he is and he just needs a few extra seconds to come up to speed. It would be easier, perhaps, if Emil wasn't talking, but... ah, well. Lalli can deal with Emil chattering and nudging and leaning over him, especially when he focuses less on the words and more on the smile directed at him. Bright...

Too bright for this early morning hour, really, and yet Lalli still shifts onto his back to get a better look, fingers curling around Emil's as he brings that hand over with him. Their hands can temporarily rest... here, on his chest, as the word "training" lodges itself in Lalli's sleepy brain. He should go to that, too? He should, but the thought alone leads to him making a disgruntled noise. He's tired! Too tired to fuss with words, but training is obviously not something he's all that excited about.

Plus it's not as important as this. For... now, anyway, and that's why he sees nothing wrong with stretching his free hand up to Emil's cheek. This dream-that-was-not-a-dream redo is long overdo, and even if things are still new enough to be a bit weird—well, damn. He wants to enjoy this, at least, so instead of talking, just let him... touch.
]
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overdo... overdue... i can't believe you didn't roast me for that

[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-21 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
[A minute is fine. A minute of silence allows Lalli to concentrate on waking the heck up, even if Emil tilting into his touch like that is, you know, quite the distraction. A good one, though, because would Emil do this now if everything that happened before was...

Well! It just seems like a positive sign, even if Lalli isn't used to such things; it's why he looks almost, um, puzzled by Emil's question. Of course it's good? Unless it's... not good for one of them, which definitely isn't him. Ah. ...Hmm. Maybe it's time to use actual words.
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...Yes? [Duh?] Yesterday was good.

[And so today is good! This is good. For both of them, hopefully, which is why Lalli hums, trying to think of a better way to put things as he mimics Emil's patented thumb-over-the-cheekbone move. Yes, he's tired, and yes, more sleep would be excellent, but when everything is said and done—]

It's... very good that you're here. Like this.

[Wonderfully descriptive. 10/10. Give his tired self a medal.]
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shocking

[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-21 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Training is a necessary evil! Lalli doesn't mind it a solid ninety percent of the time, but all it takes is one (1) forehead kiss for him to decide that this morning's training session is going to be such a waste. He knows that he needs more rest, anyway—his job affords him some leeway—and Emil needs to, uh, stay here with him. To make sure that he's happy, since that apparently determines his happiness, too, and isn't that something... isn't it strange to know that his happiness actually matters to another person...

...Wild. Lalli leaves his hand on Emil's cheek for another few seconds, thinking things through, before he brings it back down just so he can... awkwardly push himself up. He was perfectly comfortable, perfectly positioned for more forehead kisses, but all of those soft feelings are back; he won't be able to slip back to sleep for a good while and he knows it, so—he's here! Awake! Wondering what Emil was thinking about as he, like, sets their joined hands down on the bed between them and blinks over at him!
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Mm. I am.

[A simple, quiet statement, just to get that out of the way, before he cants his head slightly to the side. Once being happy—and openly admitting it—would have been so, so strange, but that's the thing about Emil! Emil has spent the past three or so months doing his best to make sure that Lalli happy. Emil consistently makes Lalli happy, and that makes Lalli want to, mmm, try his best to return the favor so—]

...Am I supposed to be thinking? About... something. [Like, about a particular thing that may or may not be important to Emil, or? Hmm.] Are you thinking about it?

[What is he missing. Does he need to reestablish their mental link this early in the morning.]
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the monday mood

[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-21 06:38 am (UTC)(link)
[Saying never mind is practically begging someone to mind, even if it's a socially inept Finn. Lalli is... curious! Not terribly concerned, thanks to the (very nice) forehead kiss he received, but—hmm. He's genuinely comfortable around Emil these days, and yet there's always the niggling fear that he's missing... something.

So what is he expecting here? He doesn't know, but what he gets is somewhat of a relief.
]

Ah.

[It's wonderful to hear that he's often on Emil's mind; a not-so-small part of him is rather smug about that, but as he follows Emil's gaze down to their hands, he isn't... shocked? Of course Emil thinks about him. Emil does more for him than anyone else, tries more than anyone else, and obviously that requires thought. Care. It just makes sense, now that he's forced to think about it. And then there's also...himself, hence the bit of silence as he works out what he wants to say and how he wants to say it.]

I think about you. A lot. Even when I— [Mmph.] I'm not trying to. [And maybe that would have been scary, once. Maybe it's still slightly scary, but as he turns Emil's hand, pressing the back of it against the bed so he can try to slide his fingers between Emil's:] I... like thinking about you. When you're here, and when you're somewhere else.

[Because Emil is a spot of sunshine, really, but! He looks back up at Emil, ignoring his flustered feelings—because whew, what an admission!—while he studies that face. They're fine, right? Even. He's talking so much at this early hour, so he's doing great, yes?]
Edited 2019-05-21 08:04 (UTC)
ilves: (79)

the monday mood (tm) lasts until 5pm on friday tbh

[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-22 08:35 am (UTC)(link)
[Thinking about Emil is good, for both of them, but saying the right thing here—or, well, thinking he said the right thing here—is even better; now Lalli can relax and, you know, quietly enjoy watching Emil's face turn an interesting shade of red, because as nice as it is to be understood, some things still require serious effort to express? It's far too early. He's far too tired. And really, given the way Emil looks back at him just to say a single stupid syllable, a brief break is clearly needed.

...Or maybe it isn't, Lalli thinks as he watches Emil stretch a hand out toward him, feels Emil's fingers skim along his jawline while he remains frozen in place. Maybe it isn't. He sucks in a quiet breath, holding it in as that thumb just barely grazes against his lips, because—ah, but that's odd? A tiny touch shouldn't make him shiver, especially not after everything that came before it, and yet it... does.

Not that he notices it, truth be told. It's little more than a blip on Lalli's (subconscious) radar while he blinks back at Emil and shifts his thoughts away from breaks and right toward... kissing. Being kissed. How it would feel for Emil's lips—which Lalli's eyes drift right down to, shamelessly—to press against his.

Well! Lalli feels a flutter of excitement, a rush of warmth, a... hint of impatience? It's good that Emil, ah, asked for permission, as it were; add it to the list of things that sets Emil apart from others, but now that Lalli is thinking about this thing he very much wants to happen—hmm! He tears his eyes away from Emil's lips (Lalli's verdict: soft), a breath finally escaping him as he meets those blue eyes once more. Is he supposed to say something here... probably, since he's dealing with Emil...
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...You can.

[If he wants to, but it's... more than that! Lalli wants him to, which is why he lifts his chin the slightest bit, why he gently tugs their joined hands back toward him. Not, uh, very far; they only move an inch or so his way, really, but it's still an obvious invitation. Come here. Kiss him before he leans in and does it himself.]
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the truest monday mood is you reminding me of this sad fact! ugh

[personal profile] ilves 2019-05-23 08:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh, Lalli is definitely greedy, but there's also the vague idea that this kiss should happen... sooner rather than later. The more time they spend looking at one another, the more time Lalli has to think about how weird kissing someone on the mouth actually is. It's still a thing that he wants, but taking this particular theory and putting it into practice is so...

Well, it's just better if things happen quickly? In this one case, anyway, because it makes everything—the way his pulse quickens, the way the room suddenly seems very warm, the way it feels to have Emil's hand lightly pressing against the back of his neck—somehow easier to deal with; he barely has time to consider one thing, let alone all of them, before Emil closes the distance between them and... kisses him.

...Ah.

To his credit, he doesn't move—which means that he, ah, isn't really coming at this from the correct angle. Like, his nose winds up bumping against Emil's cheek before he even considers that maybe he, too, is supposed to turn his head just so, but that solid idea is temporarily muffled by simpler, louder thoughts. Emil's lips... are soft! And there's something, mmm, wonderful about this thing he expected; it's enough to make Lalli's head swim, even though this kiss isn't all that different from the many others they've shared. Huh.

But after a few seconds have passed? After that initial shock fades? As good—as great—as things are, the urge to readjust is soon front and center once more; Lalli tries to ignore it for a second or so, but then, with a quiet hum, he gives in and pulls back the slightest bit. The tiniest amount. He doesn't want to go anywhere! He just wants to breathe, to oh-so briefly take in the sight of Emil's face so very close to his own, before he tilts his head and comes right back in for another careful kiss. This is... nice! Surprisingly easy(ish), despite the way his heart is absolutely pounding. Maybe he'll even figure out what to do with his free hand in another minute or so.
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